So far, the only reason I'm looking forward to Prom

This is the only reason I'm going to Prom. So far at least. I was kind of unexcited about the whole prom thing until they've told me this is involved. I've wanted to test a chocolate fountain ever since I've learned such a concept existed. 

I don't even have an outfit yet, and I can foresee a very stressful shopping period coming ahead. And I'm always so pretentious about the clothes I buy even if I don't have a high budget allocated for it. But that is the least of my issues right now, haha. Also, I'm not hating on Prom or anything, it's just that I see it as a formal event you have to attend at the end of your high-school. And when have formal events ever been overly fun? :P

I guess I'm thinking that I can't be fully myself with my classmates while all the teachers are supervising us, even if we graduated. And though I'm a big fan of big parties (there will be about 300 kids there, plus staff), I don't know if all these people are really the kind I want to spend a whole night with. Of course, my group of friends will be present there, but I still am having second thought. Oh well, it's better to have low expectations and to be pleasantly surprise than the other way around

I just love this scene, he's so funny and extrovert and an amazing actor. One of the few TV-shows that constantly made me cry. That, or I'm over-emotional suddenly. Nevertheless, David Tennant is a wonderful actor and Billie Piper as well (I've seen her before in "Secret Diary of a Call Girl")

 

I've almost forgotten about this wonderful song, but it goes so well with the Doctor's and Rose's relationship in Doctor Who, and it's just heartbreaking the fact they had to separate for the world's well-being. 

This show gives me hope for humanity overall, it's heartwarming to see that people (even if they are fictional) can harbor such selfless intention and feelings.

February, you've been here enough

I just wish spring would come faster. I can't stand the cold anymore, I can't walk properly with all this snow and ice on the ground, the weather is getting me down big time. I really like walking, but on a flat, stable surface. This time of the year makes me so tired and in mood of just slacking.

I am currently watching Doctor Who. If it were for me, I wouldn't get out of the house until I've seen all the season, but we're talking about almost 800 episodes then. :P I still have to study and go to school (and eventually have a life). I want to finish reading "Othello", then finish "My name is Red" by Orhan Pamuk. The latter is an interesting mystery/detective like novel, written in one of the most fascinating styles ever, multiple point of views. And when I say that, I don't mean two or three, I'm talking about 10 or more. You have to read it carefully to actually comprehend it.

I hope I will have enough money soon to buy myself a new laptop (omg, I cannot wait for the moment when I can play Portal, Skyrim, Assassin's Creed, Bioshock and all the other games I've missed out and only tried them at friends' houses and to be able to surf the internet at a faster speed so I spend less time on the internet and more on better things). Other than that, I really wanna try out Romwe.com, and order a nice cardigan I've seen there. Also, I finally want to purchase the other books from the "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" Series by Adam Douglas, as well as the Hunger Games and many more.

After almost 2 years of searching, I've gotten my hands on Orson Scott Card's "Ender's Game". A fellow colleague of mine had it on his PC for a while now. I've just never talked to him about it. Oh, the irony of life.

Speaking about colleagues, I've been observing some of my introvert classmates. One of them had some problems with depression (though I still think he's having problems) and has been slacking a lot and not giving a shit about school for a while (Off-topic: but Jesus, I think there's a baby crying upstairs, since when do the neighbours have toddlers?). Today I've seen him just laying his head on his desk, trying to sleep during Maths. He hasn't been making head or tail of it for a while now, and I'm honestly concerned about his passing the exam. So I tried to have him on the carpet, but he got really defensive. I must admit, we had our differences in the past, and I might have a rough way of stating facts and questions, but even so, I think I'm the one that gives the most shit about him out of the classroom. Also, everyone needs someone to check up on them and bring them back to reality, even though that might hurt. I should know that better.

I'm still hoping for better days. Or at least warmer ones :)

It does get better, but not just right now

Hello, fellow few readers. I am deeply sorry that I haven't been writing here for a while. I edited this post after a few months because I felt it was indeed too personal. I'll just let a few paragraphs remain for reasons.

That one day that I did go to school these past weeks was horrible from the start. The freezing weather outside, the useless subjects I had that day, the project that was half-assed, the mood from home, my sore tooth, everything. When I got in class I swear I never felt so far-away from anyone. I felt out of place. I just wanted to go back home, to go back to my things, to find a solution or something.

That day passed. I got an A on my project. Fortunately, it was a team project, so the other two teammates of mine did a great job and with what else I could have helped them then, it didn't turn out that bad. Also the teacher was in a good mood, and since we were the first ones to present it, she gave us credit for breaking the ice.

The next day, after a few hours the problem got solved, and the house was cozy again. Suddenly everything seemed brighter. I must tell you now that things weren't all that bad as of right then. A friend lent me her laptop for however long I needed it since she had a spare one. I got a project proposal that seems very promising. Winter is ending soon enough, so the bills will subside.

Things might not look so bright as of now, but they do get better. Trust in that. Look for the little signs. Some random text messages that I got those days were the things that kept me going. The books I was reading as well. The kindness of your friends and their readiness to help you when you're down. Cherish that. Not many have that. Keep an ear out for that one song on the radio that will make your day. Go outside and smile. Try and forget about your problems for an hour or two.

This too shall pass.

But not quite now.

Have a little patience.

It does get better.